I was so excited to visit Dottie Orenda yesterday and for a friend to meet her. All week I have been able to place the lead around her so she would know my intention of placing the harness on her. All was good, but I had a limited amount of time. I tried not to rush, but you see as soon as Orenda is done feeding she wants to be in with Dudley her pasture mate. Well I couldn’t “catch” her. I don’t like that word, it doesn’t resonate for me. So maybe first I need to find another word. Orenda bumps into the fence bc the obvious that she has not eyes. She shakes her head, and moves on. But I think between the limited time I had and the fact that I love people meeting her. I think my reaction to her bumping was a little more sensitive. She bumped into the scratching post, shook her head, walked a little bumped into the fence, shook, and bumped yet again the the scratching post. It was way more than normal and then Jules came out.
She said to me exactly what Jim at Bar T says “You need to regather and shift your energy”. At least that is what I heard.
And she nailed it on the head!
Once a student asked, why does my 6 year old no sit still? I said ” Do you?” And that was it. He only saw her rushing around,no stillness.
And so she too needed to slow down, enough that her whirlwind energy would not throw him off balance.
Orenda felt everything. My energy. My limited time. My constant reaction to her bumping her head. I was extra sensitive and in the process I hurt her. By not grounding myself. By unconsciously rushing. It was such an waking moment for me. I like to pace my self, but I must move slower. I have Orenda for more than one reason, but really to love her and give her a safe space. That is what I intend to do.
Today, I will gather my energy, place it on the wind, and watch it float away. And if there is no wind? There I will bury it in Mother Earth. She needs my security and to know she can trust me.
One step, breathe, another, breathe.