May 2017

Go to what scares you.

This is so spot on. Cisco Terruño arrives Sunday and I am getting more excited each moment. I am facing one of my greatest fears and loving each moment. It is hard work, but I guess I know how to appreciate that hard work. Such great support with Allison and of course Cisco’s Mama who has just loved and loved her boy. Dottie Orenda passed on March 4th and I barely had a chance to own a horse. I am looking forward to this journey and what will come next. Transitions are always such a turning point in my life. Do you find they are in yours?

Forgive- do I forgive or you?

Such a big word.Don’t you think? I am not teaching Victoria to say I am sorry all the time. I wanna know what she is willing to do in exchange for what she has done to hurt another. I am teaching her acknowledgement. I don’t want her to simply say “I am sorry” and that is that and then repeat the behavior. My spiritual minister, Amy Pierce says Forgive is “What will you ‘give for’. It is not my place to forgive anybody’s actions. That is that high and mighty ego or what I tell Victoria “the Bad Wolf” running the show. On a personal level I do my best to set this example to her. I can look try to look at the underlying reason of someone hurting me or me hurting them and see what I can learn from that. I am not gonna wave a magic wand and say “I forgive you or I accept you hurt me or I am sorry”. I am gonna wanna know what I or they can do better to make this situation better.
Sorry and Forgive. Such big words that people throw around way to easily thinking that it will always make things better. Or that it will justify actions or feelings of entitlement. And sometimes wanna hear it over and over and over and…….If you know me, then you know these words are not words I use often, bc the actions I take and the words I speak usually mean something to me. So I can assure you that if I do say them I mean them.  So let’s leave it here….
Can you forgive yourself? Apologize to yourself first? Because it all comes back to our Authentic Selves and how we allow the world to influence, define, or move us closer or away from one another.

So easy to get sidetracked.

We were born knowing. Sometimes we forget or get sidetracked. That is okay, bc we still know, simply trust . Trust whom? Why not your intuition. Connect with your authentic self and you will never sway from your path. It doesn’t matter who thinks what, bc they are not you and you are not them. You sleep within your spirit and no one else, not even your greatest lover of lovers. Eternal bliss awaits you when you allow your self to fight the natural currents of life. Living is in your hands and you have one job. To be true to the world. But first you must trust.